27.change

has come.
follow me.
why?

27.other

I’m so sick of all these people, but I’m scared to be alone.

[from gefuehlskonserve.de]

27.old

Das Glück ist nur eine Singularität in der Undendlichkeit der Verzweiflung.

26.new

tell me why?
why let you me kiss your hand farewell?
why did you this to me?
first just an anonymous guest,
and then the permission to touch your hand with my lips?
why?
we shall talk,
i think you are a person worth knowing.
please be that person,
who is worth to be loved,
i've been searching since an eternity for you.

26.old

Du gibst mir freude. Nach einer durchzechten nacht ist Dein lächeln wie ein sonnenstrahl, der die wolken meiner kopfschmerzen teilt. made by bayer.
Wenn Du da bist fühle ich mich mehr. Mehr als mensch, mehr als ich, mehr als alle anderen. Das gras ist grüner. Wenn Du weg bist fehlt der meinen Welt was, die erinnerung an Dich bringt die farben wieder.

25.new

i can feel the change,
it's coming,
lurking in the shadows,
waiting in the dark corners of my life

i can feel it come
summing up the probabilities,
waiting patiently to break the barrier of my reality

i know it,
i've known it for so long

pushing it away,
struggling against the inevitable,
using all my power, all my strength to make this moment last.
to protect my little world against it.

because i feel happy here,
cos i would like it to last forever
cos it is a great part of my self definition.
a part of me.
and me a part of it.

but the change is coming.

have i spent to much time here?
have i forgotten how to change?
lost the ability to go with the flow?
became static?

i have to remember.
how to redefine myself.
define myself through the change.

because its coming.

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it was solid
yet everchanging
it was different
yet the same
...
therein lies the beauty
- Dark Tranquillity


nothing is satic, everything is falling, everything is falling apart
- Tyler Durden

I wanna feel the change consume me,
Feel the outside turning in.
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I've endured within

My shadow
Change is coming.
Now is my time.
- Tool

25.old

verachten für die, die das streben nach einem besserem ich aufgegeben haben.

24.new

we use to complicate things, is it because if our inability to understand our drives and motivations as that simple and boring?

24.old

beyond the horizon of my dreams
you play the music to the echoes of my feelings

23.new

Each time we met, my words crumble to dust
Each time you pick the remains and give them meaning again.
You beat me every time.

23.old

the glimpse of true emotion makes my ordinary life look like a fading flower in the desert of cold seed.

22.new

we use to complicate things, is it because if our inability to understand our drives and motivations as that simple and boring?

22.old

the echoes of love long gone haunt my dreams. No daylight nor the embrace of night make them go away. My returning power seem to strenghten them.
My fears become obvious, small

21.not that new

How many dissapointments do we need to cool down like a dying sun?
Empty shell is that will be left.
How much love is needed for us to go supernova?