has come.
follow me.
why?
Mittwoch, 25. Februar 2009
Montag, 23. Februar 2009
Freitag, 20. Februar 2009
Donnerstag, 12. Februar 2009
26.new
tell me why?
why let you me kiss your hand farewell?
why did you this to me?
first just an anonymous guest,
and then the permission to touch your hand with my lips?
why?
we shall talk,
i think you are a person worth knowing.
please be that person,
who is worth to be loved,
i've been searching since an eternity for you.
why let you me kiss your hand farewell?
why did you this to me?
first just an anonymous guest,
and then the permission to touch your hand with my lips?
why?
we shall talk,
i think you are a person worth knowing.
please be that person,
who is worth to be loved,
i've been searching since an eternity for you.
26.old
Du gibst mir freude. Nach einer durchzechten nacht ist Dein lächeln wie ein sonnenstrahl, der die wolken meiner kopfschmerzen teilt. made by bayer.
Wenn Du da bist fühle ich mich mehr. Mehr als mensch, mehr als ich, mehr als alle anderen. Das gras ist grüner. Wenn Du weg bist fehlt der meinen Welt was, die erinnerung an Dich bringt die farben wieder.
Wenn Du da bist fühle ich mich mehr. Mehr als mensch, mehr als ich, mehr als alle anderen. Das gras ist grüner. Wenn Du weg bist fehlt der meinen Welt was, die erinnerung an Dich bringt die farben wieder.
Samstag, 7. Februar 2009
25.new
i can feel the change,
it's coming,
lurking in the shadows,
waiting in the dark corners of my life
i can feel it come
summing up the probabilities,
waiting patiently to break the barrier of my reality
i know it,
i've known it for so long
pushing it away,
struggling against the inevitable,
using all my power, all my strength to make this moment last.
to protect my little world against it.
because i feel happy here,
cos i would like it to last forever
cos it is a great part of my self definition.
a part of me.
and me a part of it.
but the change is coming.
have i spent to much time here?
have i forgotten how to change?
lost the ability to go with the flow?
became static?
i have to remember.
how to redefine myself.
define myself through the change.
because its coming.
-----------------------
it was solid
yet everchanging
it was different
yet the same
...
therein lies the beauty
- Dark Tranquillity
nothing is satic, everything is falling, everything is falling apart
- Tyler Durden
I wanna feel the change consume me,
Feel the outside turning in.
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I've endured within
My shadow
Change is coming.
Now is my time.
- Tool
it's coming,
lurking in the shadows,
waiting in the dark corners of my life
i can feel it come
summing up the probabilities,
waiting patiently to break the barrier of my reality
i know it,
i've known it for so long
pushing it away,
struggling against the inevitable,
using all my power, all my strength to make this moment last.
to protect my little world against it.
because i feel happy here,
cos i would like it to last forever
cos it is a great part of my self definition.
a part of me.
and me a part of it.
but the change is coming.
have i spent to much time here?
have i forgotten how to change?
lost the ability to go with the flow?
became static?
i have to remember.
how to redefine myself.
define myself through the change.
because its coming.
-----------------------
it was solid
yet everchanging
it was different
yet the same
...
therein lies the beauty
- Dark Tranquillity
nothing is satic, everything is falling, everything is falling apart
- Tyler Durden
I wanna feel the change consume me,
Feel the outside turning in.
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I've endured within
My shadow
Change is coming.
Now is my time.
- Tool
Montag, 26. Januar 2009
Sonntag, 25. Januar 2009
24.new
we use to complicate things, is it because if our inability to understand our drives and motivations as that simple and boring?
Samstag, 24. Januar 2009
Donnerstag, 22. Januar 2009
Montag, 19. Januar 2009
22.new
we use to complicate things, is it because if our inability to understand our drives and motivations as that simple and boring?
22.old
the echoes of love long gone haunt my dreams. No daylight nor the embrace of night make them go away. My returning power seem to strenghten them.
My fears become obvious, small
My fears become obvious, small
Dienstag, 6. Januar 2009
21.not that new
How many dissapointments do we need to cool down like a dying sun?
Empty shell is that will be left.
How much love is needed for us to go supernova?
Empty shell is that will be left.
How much love is needed for us to go supernova?
Dienstag, 30. Dezember 2008
21.old
Life goes around in circles, the pain you cause is the pain you recieve.
This simple geometry of pain fails when beholding love.
the clue is to solve its pattern
This simple geometry of pain fails when beholding love.
the clue is to solve its pattern
Sonntag, 7. Dezember 2008
Donnerstag, 4. Dezember 2008
Mittwoch, 3. Dezember 2008
19.new
with every disappointment we harden our shell.
to protect us, to shield us.
with every disappointment our fire goes darker.
protected, shielded by too many shells.
to protect us, to shield us.
with every disappointment our fire goes darker.
protected, shielded by too many shells.
Dienstag, 2. Dezember 2008
19.old
sleepwalking through the dream of my life, the nightmare of my life.
every step may send me into darkness or lift me into heavens.
which way will i take?
Who am I to choose?
every step may send me into darkness or lift me into heavens.
which way will i take?
Who am I to choose?
Montag, 24. November 2008
Montag, 20. Oktober 2008
18.old
the last of the heroes gone. noone to show me the way, to separate wrong from right, to colour the shades of gray. just me and the music of my soul.
Sonntag, 19. Oktober 2008
17.other
Restless little one
Comfortable and warm
Let me fall apart
Crippled in your arms
Chase me through the dark
Ready on your mark
First to reach the stars
Wins a broken heart
One that broke apart
Shattered from the start
[foo fighters - over and out]
Comfortable and warm
Let me fall apart
Crippled in your arms
Chase me through the dark
Ready on your mark
First to reach the stars
Wins a broken heart
One that broke apart
Shattered from the start
[foo fighters - over and out]
Sonntag, 28. September 2008
17.old
in the landscape of my feelings, i'm walking through a desert of indifference, broken by the spikes of despair growing out of forbidden love.
Samstag, 27. September 2008
16.new
the ability to forget is the only thing that keeps us alive
after 934241241 seconds of concious life we realise that there's nothing new
we've seen it all, done it all, thought it all through, felt every emotion,exploded in every ectasy, cried all tears, reachd all goals.
be thankful,
forget.
after 934241241 seconds of concious life we realise that there's nothing new
we've seen it all, done it all, thought it all through, felt every emotion,exploded in every ectasy, cried all tears, reachd all goals.
be thankful,
forget.
Sonntag, 10. August 2008
16.old
the loss of a beloved presence fills me with emptyness. like a bubble of non-existence eating my soul, consuming myself. part of me gone, leaving a hole into which the rest follows.
Samstag, 9. August 2008
15. other
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that frightens us.
Freitag, 8. August 2008
15.new
tired of giving and getting nothing back
tired of loving and being not loved/ignored
tired, just tired
tired of loving and being not loved/ignored
tired, just tired
Sonntag, 13. Juli 2008
15.old
my self-centered existence turning pointless. the lack of stars, nothing to look up to.
makes my vision go blind.
all whats left is the vision of small lives.
makes my vision go blind.
all whats left is the vision of small lives.
Dienstag, 17. Juni 2008
14.new
tired beyond any sleep to heal,
waiting for the colors to reapear in the grey world,
have to dig hard and deep for every fragment of emotion
waiting for the colors to reapear in the grey world,
have to dig hard and deep for every fragment of emotion
14.old
die tränen zeigen mir daß ich noch am leben bin. die fähigkeit mich so zu berühren besitzen nicht viele.
Dafür bin ich euch dankbar, möget ihr mich lange zeit auf meinem weg begleiten. danke für die liebe.
Dafür bin ich euch dankbar, möget ihr mich lange zeit auf meinem weg begleiten. danke für die liebe.
Montag, 26. Mai 2008
13.new
thank you,
thank you for listening,
thank you for percepting the echoes of the music of my soul.
thank you for listening,
thank you for percepting the echoes of the music of my soul.
Samstag, 17. Mai 2008
13.old
to overcome my blindness, i need to see clearly.
moments of beauty shattered my shell of self-centered existence
moments of beauty shattered my shell of self-centered existence
12.new
the process of hurting someone close rips my soul in pieces,
even if i see this is the only way, my inner self screams in white agony.
this is the guilt i have to live with.
even if i see this is the only way, my inner self screams in white agony.
this is the guilt i have to live with.
12.old
so verharre ich in dem Moment verblassender Gefühle, in törichter Hoffnung er würde für immer verbleiben.
Unfähig klar zu denken, aufrecht zu empfinden. Der vorhergeahnte Schmerz des Verlustes hindert mich daran weiterzugehen und mich neuzuverlieben.
There are bridges that won't burn.
Nicht mit meinem feuer, noch nicht.
Unfähig klar zu denken, aufrecht zu empfinden. Der vorhergeahnte Schmerz des Verlustes hindert mich daran weiterzugehen und mich neuzuverlieben.
There are bridges that won't burn.
Nicht mit meinem feuer, noch nicht.
Samstag, 26. April 2008
11.new
the simple proximity of another soul, the ability to touch it floods my inner being with warmth, the sensation of touch, unbound by any expectations or conventions makes me smile again, makes me feel alive.
Again.
Again.
Montag, 14. April 2008
11.other
The infinite possibilities each day holds should stagger the mind. The sheer number of experiences i could have is uncountable, breathtaking, and I'm sitting here refreshing my INBOX. We live trapped in loops. Reliving a few days over and over, and we envision only a handful of paths laid out ahead of us. We see the same things each day, we respond the same way, we think the same thoughts, each day a slight variation of the last, every moment smoothly following the gentle curves of social norms. We act like if we just get through today, tomorrow our dreams will come back to us.
[from http://xkcd.com/137]
[from http://xkcd.com/137]
Dienstag, 25. März 2008
11.old
pools of molten pain opens inside my heart. the fear of loosing someone loved drives me insane, but this madness reveals my true feelings
10.new
the world is sucking away my lifeblood,
the more i give, the less i receive back,
all of my compassion spent,
like a raindrop in the desert,
i feel like trying to turn a glacier with my own breath,
should i keep this breath for myself?
the more i give, the less i receive back,
all of my compassion spent,
like a raindrop in the desert,
i feel like trying to turn a glacier with my own breath,
should i keep this breath for myself?
Mittwoch, 6. Februar 2008
Freitag, 1. Februar 2008
9.new
a moment of beauty, moment of perfection, moment of truth,
in one splitsecond reality we manage to synchronise our souls,
to tune ourselfs to the music of another soul,
can this be love?
in one splitsecond reality we manage to synchronise our souls,
to tune ourselfs to the music of another soul,
can this be love?
Samstag, 26. Januar 2008
9.old
life slowly burning away, the pain of decay stretched over infinity,
pain, my only true follower, all other of them gone: hope, pride, passion, strenght.
My sole friend whom I can embrace in my struggle for power.
pain, my only true follower, all other of them gone: hope, pride, passion, strenght.
My sole friend whom I can embrace in my struggle for power.
Freitag, 25. Januar 2008
8.new
have you ever cried?
have you ever...
...felt beauty,
...heard music,
...felt awe,
that made you cry?
have you ever cried?
have you ever...
...felt beauty,
...heard music,
...felt awe,
that made you cry?
have you ever cried?
Montag, 7. Januar 2008
8.old
percieving our blindness is only possible
by taking off the glasses of prejustice.
erst wenn wir zu sehen gelernt haben
erkennen wir unsere blindheit
by taking off the glasses of prejustice.
erst wenn wir zu sehen gelernt haben
erkennen wir unsere blindheit
7.new
The fire that burns in our souls seems to die
Time is the curse and the bless that makes us human
All we need is a reignition of the spark
a reboot of the soul that makes IT speak again
the insight for the mechanics of our souls is what we need
Time is the curse and the bless that makes us human
All we need is a reignition of the spark
a reboot of the soul that makes IT speak again
the insight for the mechanics of our souls is what we need
Sonntag, 23. Dezember 2007
7.old
the pain of hope. blinded by fate (fool)
looking for the spark, able to re-ignite the fire,
in a life of everlasting dark
looking for the spark, able to re-ignite the fire,
in a life of everlasting dark
6.new
We choose not to...
...not to love,
...not to be the person we want to be,
...not to see.
not making a choice is the easiest choice
...not to love,
...not to be the person we want to be,
...not to see.
not making a choice is the easiest choice
6.2.old
surrounded by a world which coldness makes
my emotionless freeze look like a bonfire
in the dark.
sub-zero feelings.
my emotionless freeze look like a bonfire
in the dark.
sub-zero feelings.
Freitag, 21. Dezember 2007
6.1.old
there's beauty in us all, lurking beneath
a thousand artificial shells,
sometimes forgotten even by ourselves.
a thousand artificial shells,
sometimes forgotten even by ourselves.
Donnerstag, 20. Dezember 2007
5.new
our greatest treasure
the intersubjectivity of feelings
the ability to re-feel other people emotions
compassion
the intersubjectivity of feelings
the ability to re-feel other people emotions
compassion
5.old
impression of beauty, captured in a fraction of time, frozen in time.
for every whish given up, there is a price to pay.
for every whish given up, there is a price to pay.
4.new
You are the one.
You are the one I could
o WASTE
o SPARE
o FULFILL
o AWAKEN
o LIVE
o SACRIFICE
o FORGET
o AWAKEN
my love for
please choose the appropriate item.
You are the one I could
o WASTE
o SPARE
o FULFILL
o AWAKEN
o LIVE
o SACRIFICE
o FORGET
o AWAKEN
my love for
please choose the appropriate item.
4.old
here we go, barely remembering what happend before.
memories fade to grey, turn to dust, to nothing
running in circles.
let your soul melt, melted hate, molten love, liquid fear.
embracing every pure emotion, trying to find that spark
that makes us burn again.
every thread of felleing analysed, dissected.
silent screams rising, unable to break the molten walls of
our dis-emotional prison/cage.
that's the end of fairy-tales.
memories fade to grey, turn to dust, to nothing
running in circles.
let your soul melt, melted hate, molten love, liquid fear.
embracing every pure emotion, trying to find that spark
that makes us burn again.
every thread of felleing analysed, dissected.
silent screams rising, unable to break the molten walls of
our dis-emotional prison/cage.
that's the end of fairy-tales.
Montag, 17. Dezember 2007
3.new
we think we've come that far
the crown of evolution
masters of our destiny
gods chosen
...but that's just the begining
what about the other side?
brothers killers
warmongers
drown in stupidity
...that's already the very end
the crown of evolution
masters of our destiny
gods chosen
...but that's just the begining
what about the other side?
brothers killers
warmongers
drown in stupidity
...that's already the very end
Sonntag, 16. Dezember 2007
Freitag, 14. Dezember 2007
2.old
walking the crowded streets alone,
feeling like a stranger on a different planet.
empty faces everywhere,
showing barely rememberd shadows of emotions,
caring for no-one exept themselvels
countless souls are slowly dying
slowly fading to grey
your sleeping time is over,
break the silence
in this particular moment there is only one solution
WAKE UP!!
Remember! Rediscover how to love, how to hate
feeling like a stranger on a different planet.
empty faces everywhere,
showing barely rememberd shadows of emotions,
caring for no-one exept themselvels
countless souls are slowly dying
slowly fading to grey
your sleeping time is over,
break the silence
in this particular moment there is only one solution
WAKE UP!!
Remember! Rediscover how to love, how to hate
1.new
stupidity and ignorance surrounds me.
minus and minus equals plus?
exponential breakdown follows
minus and minus equals plus?
exponential breakdown follows
Donnerstag, 13. Dezember 2007
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